Entering 2009 wasn't as jolly as it should be. Bad times, indeed.

Anyway, I've been updating my other blog more than here, so if you are somehow still interested, head over to:

http://ashytized.blogspot.com

I was just looking through most of the old blog posts here. Quite some memories. The "Demon Queen" post were quite unbelievable, now that I think about it, I wonder if I should dig through the Blogjutsu blog too.

I'm back on the road alone again. Looks like my princess (believe it or not, she really has royalty blood) deserves someone better, though it always hurts to be at the other end of the break up gun. I should not contemplate on it much.. it's just a relationship right? but, I've put so much into it.. more than I ever have in the past. Yet it was not enough.

Twice in a row. Funny, 2 is supposed to be my lucky number. I think I need to choose a different one this time ;) Gosh, if my first ex knew, she would be laughing her mouth out for sure. "You're a loser, ash! no girl cares for chivalry anymore"

Trying to get into that "mode" again. The "screw it, I don't need a girl" that had sustained me for a few years before. Family, friendship and basketball had sustained me in the past. I should try refocus on those three again :) So.. whoever quotes me the "lots of fishes in the pond" crap to me, I'll throw them into a real one. I'm serious.